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[maced_eggs]

New Year's Resolutions

-Stop drinking
-Stop ingesting foreign substances
-Stay away from fucking vampires and clowns
-Learn how to take care of a rabbit
-Figure out the fuck I want to do with my life
-See Georgie and Daisy again
-Be nicer to Gwenny
-Bathe more regularly
-Read a book

Comments

[maced_eggs]

You're the cruelest person I know.

[interns]

That can't be true! Didn't one of your friends from home shoot you in the foot?

[maced_eggs]

Roxie?

Yeeeah, but she did it out of love.

[interns]

And I'm not letting you give up on your resolutions because I care. It's the same. Only my actions aren't lethal.

[maced_eggs]

Didn't even have champagne for New Year's.

[interns]

Which is kind of amazing! You know that right? It's something to be proud of. I'm proud of you, at least.

[maced_eggs]

It's not bragging rights - I was complaining about the state of things around here.


...You are?

[interns]

Well, you could have sought out an alternative, right? But you didn't. That's something to be proud of, I think.

[maced_eggs]

...but I did try to find an alternative.

Apparently it's wet paint you're meant to sniff. Licking the dry wall paint did nothing.

lol oops

[interns]

[ ...ew ]

Ew. Mason! That's... sot something to be proud of, so much. I'm going to stick with the being proud you didn't find something else to drink.

fff

[maced_eggs]

Better than drinking dry ice.

I did that once, you know. I don't recommend it.

[interns]

We really need to find a way to redirect this "chasing the greatest high" thing.

I mean, I get it. But. Jeeze.

[maced_eggs]

You? Sweet, innocent Gwenny?

Nah. You don't understand drugs. I don't want you to understand drugs.

[interns]

I understand drugs on a chemical level. I know how they work, and the effects they achieve. I'm saying there are perfectly legal ways to get that same kind of feeling.

Well, almost the same.

Better, in a lot of ways, but that's just my opinion on it.

[maced_eggs]

Oh yeah? How do you propose doing that?

[interns]

I haven't figured it out exactly yet, but-

[ she scrunches her nose ]

It's kind of hard to explain.

[maced_eggs]

Explain it to me. I'm rather hard at listening so maybe it'll all balance out.

[interns]

Drugs aren't the only things that can alter your mind, you know? There's adrenaline rushes, and the kind of rush you feel when you're doing something you love, or when you hear a song you love.

The part that's hard to explain is trying to figure out what makes those things fire off in your mind. Trying to piece together something that'll work right for you, and help you.

I can't make any promises, it's just a generic theory that I'm really hoping I can make work for you.

[maced_eggs]

That's all right, but...

What if there's no more fire in my mind on account of the hole I drilled through my brain?

[interns]

No way, not possible.

I lived in NYC, remember? I've seen burnouts and people who lost their fire, but that's not you.

For starters, your list of resolutions wouldn't look like that if that was you.

[maced_eggs]

No, like. Lit'rally drilled a hole, in my brain.

...You think?

[interns]

Well, okay, yeah. But I just mean that I've seen the people who've lost it, and you're not like that.

[ she almost brings up her own death. almost. but it doesn't feel right to tell him how it happened, exactly, over a text message. ]

I do.

[maced_eggs]

You're too kind to me some days, Gwenny. You do know that?

[interns]

I thought I was the cruelest person you know?

[maced_eggs]

You can be both. Kindest an' cruelest.